Are you kidding?
Wow. I guess you aren’t because, ouch. Trying to remember which is first means I have to go past the others.
Well, the first one was when I was… five?
I don’t know when I first started liking the boy. But I dreamt of him once, and I became fully aware of him, as a boy I would like as a future husband.
I didn’t know how one was to go about such things. Nor did I know what I, him or we are to do between that time, and when we become accomplished and matured.
I can’t exactly recall what he or I said. But I felt a “No” from him, because I begun seeing less of him.
Now that I think about it, I must have tried being wherever he was or something. And maybe I asked we be friends.
Just guessing.
Because my complete aversion for asking a man I like to be my friend, must have come from somewhere. That is, apart from my Bible which says, “He that findeth a wife…” and “Therefore shall a man leave his mother and father and cleave to his wife…”, of course.
Nothing came of it. Though I can’t remember what was said or not said, but I feel sad, remembering — as if I was rejected.
There were other crushes as I grew older, with all drama details remembered, but they weren’t the first, so….🤷🏽♀️
Guard your heart with all diligence for out of it flow the issues of life.
Bible’s Proverbs